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I can't believe it has been four months since I have posted....it's OK though, I don't think anyone except my husband reads so it is probably fine. Anyway interestingly enough my last post was March 9, one month to the day before our finalization and I think I may have flipped out just a wee bit as that day approached. I absolutely had no reservations in my heart about anything happening to disrupt our family but I still was a little weirded out as the day approached. So bless my husbands heart he agreed to go see a counselor with me from Spence Chapin who works with families pre and post adoption, although this was mostly my issue he did attend for 4 sessions.

I am not sure what I was really worrying about but what I went in to discuss was how my Birthmom,  was going to process the finalization, and how we would build the relationship without the pre-defined agency contacts of our first six months as a family.   I was truly worried about her grieving process and how to ask her about how we should communicate moving forward.  

Anyway, several sessions and one very supportive husband later I was feeling much better and enjoyed the permission to focus on my family and not worry so much about the moving forward part as it would  inevitably define itself...which it is doing.   

So that accounts for 6 weeks of my time off from this blog.