it's happening...

It is going on Day 11 of our ads running and the phone has been ringing...so I guess this really does work.  We have sent our profile to a several folks with only a little follow up.   I don't want to say more for fear of jinxing it but it could happen anywhere between the end of this month and January.  I think we have enough Mom's that if someone falls out, we will still be parents.

I will say there have been some very disturbing and sad phone calls.   There have a been a couple of women who were completely apathetic, and one woman who has a 3yr old and a 6mos old and she wanted to place them both, because she just "couldn't do it anymore".  That call haunted me all day.  Another call came from a hospital in SC where my fear was that it was a born baby and a mom with few options.   That call haunted me for a couple of days.  I looked up the hospital on the internet to try and see if it looked nice and if hopefully they had some social services that could help that woman who hung up on me pretty quickly. 

I am keeping separate notes on the day to day and the emotions of this process for later posting.  I just don't want all of this on the internet  while it is happening.  It doesn't seem fair or honest to the people who are placing their trust in us to care for and love their child.  I am so excited.  After 3 1/2 year of fertility, two donors and a couple of miscarriages I am ready to be a Momma. 

edited to add: Shimmer is the pattern I am working on and my brain is so fried it won't let me get past joining the sleeves to the body of the shrug.  I just need to get into the swing of it.