she is almost here

Although when we moved to our new home, we painted a bedroom an appropriately neutral baby color...kind of the old "if you build it they will come" idea, I never could bring myself to set it up fully as a nursery.   The last two weeks though we have amassed quite a collection of infant/baby paraphernalia, we have packed a hit the road in a hurry kit and tomorrow I will pack a suitcase for husband and I to spend some time out of state.  The good news is we will be going to a different climate so the clothes I will pack are not the ones we need to wear here.    

The hard part is trying to not get excited, hence not setting up the nursery, although that could also be denial that life is about to change dramatically.   

There are some very hard parts of this, especially around a couple of the Mom's that were not right for us not us for them very likely.     Tomorrow I will have to find a way to tell one seemingly lovely  women that we are not the right parents for her child.  I suspect there are a lot of drugs and high risk behavior involved.